In just over three months I’ll be reaching one of the biggest age milestones, turning the exciting, yet daunting age of 21!!
When I think back to my sister turning 21, I remember thinking; she’s so together, so grown up, she’s really got her life in order, I can’t wait to be her age. But now that girl is me, I realise – it is not as black and white as that.
Another reason why I now seem to be getting myself into a blind panic about turning 21 is when I attended Smiths Lawn, last week. One of my best friends and I, went to watch our other best friend compete in a horse show consisting of – dressage, cross country and show jumping. He was astounding, placing second and fourth, without hardly breaking a sweat. He is so talented and I am so proud of him. Do you ever feel like everyone around you seems to be accomplishing so much? Then you look at yourself and feel a bit deflated. I know everyone tells you that you’ll find what you want to do in life when you least expect it. However, sometimes I wish I could just glance into my future and see where I’ll be in five years time.
Getting older made me think about all my first times, which I love reminiscing about. (Some obviously better than others!) My first bike ride, my first kiss, the first time I slept with someone, the first time I said ‘I love you’, my first day at sixth form… All those kind of things. You never forget or replace those first times and I like the fact that I am a feature in other people’s first times too. Sometime I wish I could go back and do those first times all over again, just to appreciate that it was the first of something.
The Sunday of summer is now here, also known as August. August usually feels like you are beginning to see the end of summer, which of course I’m quite bummed about. But you’ve still got four weeks to go, and a lot can happen in four weeks. Although, I am actually looking forward to going back to university, I need some solid structure in my life again.
How has your summer been? Accomplished much?