Age is just a number, right?

In just over three months I’ll be reaching one of the biggest age milestones, turning the exciting, yet daunting age of 21!!

When I think back to my sister turning 21, I remember thinking; she’s so together, so grown up, she’s really got her life in order, I can’t wait to be her age. But now that girl is me, I realise – it is not as black and white as that.
Another reason why I now seem to be getting myself into a blind panic about turning 21 is when I attended Smiths Lawn, last week. One of my best friends and I, went to watch our other best friend compete in a horse show consisting of – dressage, cross country and show jumping. He was astounding, placing second and fourth, without hardly breaking a sweat. He is so talented and I am so proud of him. Do you ever feel like everyone around you seems to be accomplishing so much? Then you look at yourself and feel a bit deflated. I know everyone tells you that you’ll find what you want to do in life when you least expect it. However, sometimes I wish I could just glance into my future and see where I’ll be in five years time.

Getting older made me think about all my first times, which I love reminiscing about. (Some obviously better than others!) My first bike ride, my first kiss, the first time I slept with someone, the first time I said ‘I love you’, my first day at sixth form… All those kind of things. You never forget or replace those first times and I like the fact that I am a feature in other people’s first times too. Sometime I wish I could go back and do those first times all over again, just to appreciate that it was the first of something.

The Sunday of summer is now here, also known as August. August usually feels like you are beginning to see the end of summer, which of course I’m quite bummed about. But you’ve still got four weeks to go, and a lot can happen in four weeks. Although, I am actually looking forward to going back to university, I need some solid structure in my life again.

How has your summer been? Accomplished much?

Take care,

B x

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Summer Reading List…

Isn’t this sunshine amazing? I can’t get enough of it! Although there is always the dilemma of what to wear, too warm for thick jeans, too cool for little summer dresses. But my Topshop, Mom jeans similar to these, but more cropped, (minus the rips, as I bought them last year in the sale!) I also wore my purple silk shirt from Zara today. Oh and of course my lovely linen tops from Whistles are so good for this warmer weather. Tied together with a statement necklace and converse.

Anyway, the point of my post today is a summer reading list, as it feels as if summer is in full swing due to the beautiful sunshine and that a lot of you are jetting off on holiday. Myself included, yipeeeeey!

1. I Know Why The Caged Bird Sings by Dr. Maya Angelou – because of her recent death I came across some of her poetry and quotes, all of which are so raw and honest about life. You know when you read something and you’re like, “YES, you get me!” I felt like that about all nearly all of the things she so eloquently wrote. So I’m going to give her autobiography a read on holiday, it’s been rated four and a half out of five, so I’m hoping it lives up to it.

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2. The Monstrous-Feminine: Film, Feminism, Psychoanalysis (Popular Fictions Series) by Barbara Creed – the terrible events that are happening in Nigeria made me think a lot more about Feminism (I also read loads of article that the Guardian published online about it all, which fuelled my interest even more) and how far we’ve come, but still have a huge amount to over come too. One of my modules at university has been on women, gender and power, so this has fuelled me too. The Suffragettes were amazing ladies!

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3. The Philosophical Baby: What Children’s Minds Tell Us about Truth, Love & the Meaning of Life by Alison Gopnik – my sister is expecting a little bundle of joy, so I thought I’d give this book a go. I’ve always been interested in Freudian views of children and how they view the world. So this seemed to fit the bill!

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I’ll let you guys know how I get on with the books and give some reviews.

Take care,

B x

No Tomorrow, Nottingham

Things have been non-stop since the end of exams, with my internship being extremely full on, as well as working at Whistles on my days off, whilst trying to squeeze in time with my friends and family before I jet off on holiday! With this in mind, I couldn’t turn down a boozy weekend in Nottingham with my best friend, to help me forget all my responsibilities.

My best friend G goes to university in Nottingham, so invited me up for the weekend to attend the No Tomorrow festival at Wollaton Park (basically, Batman’s house!!). The car journey up was terrible, due to the torrential rain we were greeted with on the motorway. But the sun did shine for us and I even got a bit of a tan on my back. The acts were all brilliant, we watched Clean Bandit, Sam Smith and the main headliner London Grammar (who actually attended Nottingham university). All of them were excellent, I don’t think I could choose a favourite, also because they’re all such different musicians! Such a good lineup for a small, understated festival. After the performances, we headed back to the beer tent, then onto one of the other student houses and tucked into a greasy Chinese, it was well worth the calories. Day drinking meant our hangovers set in early, so we all ended up having an early night. So rock’n’roll!

The journey home on the train wasn’t too fun, but my mama had prepared an impressive BBQ, so that was my motivation to get home! The weekend consisted of lots of eating and drinking. Never good, especially when I’m going on holiday at the end of the week. But I cannot wait, sun, sea and cocktails, it couldn’t come round soon enough. Even if a bit rushed.

Here are some photos of my trip up to Nottingham and of the festival, if you’re lucky enough to hear about it next year I really recommend going, it was small, but not too small, yet the acts were massive artists, as well as being in a picturesque setting!

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Hope you’re all well and enjoying the sunny weather we’re having at the moment.

Take care,

B x

Being a real-life Intern…

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Exams are done and dusted, all that is left now is the painful wait to find out my results, which plays on my mind every now and then. Resulting in a mad panic, sweaty palms and my mother telling me to pull myself together. On a lighter note, my summer holiday is booked, only three weeks to go. My best friends are nearly all on their way home to join me and best of all I’ve started my four month internship at CATO Music, which is bloody amazing.

Let me set the scene for you – I arrive to a beautiful Georgian house just off of Upper Richmond Road, (which was owned and lived in by Mick Jagger and Jerri Hall, then it became the Rolling Stones’s recording studios!! Does it get any better than this?!) it has pink flags and black, wrought iron gates, I get buzzed in and am greeted by a very bubbly and smiley team. As an intern, I can’t tell you how rare that is, you’re usually met by a few young people, dressed to the nines, predominately females, looking you up and down there’s then a mumble of, ‘Oh yeah, hold on let me call…‘ and a shrug of the shoulders, not forgetting a huge sigh. But CATO is different, I can’t really explain what it is they actually do, they have a lot of fingers in a lot of pies in the music industry – from touring and production, to opening their own music academy for young people. This was one of the main reasons I was so attracted to them! I’m so excited to learn and however cliché it sounds, develop here, in a personal way and hopefully in terms of a career. 

So, my first day – Queen are in the recording studio next to me (I can hear Brain May as I type) and Amy MacDonald is in the other studio CATO own down the road. Now, I know it all sounds glamorous, fast-paced and , don’t get me wrong it is both of those things and more. But as an intern be prepared to get your hands dirty, literally, from making cups of tea, filing, to emptying bins. Say yes to every task, no matter how boring or small. Short term pain, long term gain! You learn a lot from everything, and from everyone around you. Anyway, enough with the lecture. 

So, what did I wear? Because it is the arts industry, I’m not required to wear anything too fancy, smart/causal is the general consensus. I opted for, my Jamie black skinny jeans from Topshop, a black Victorian-esq shirt from Zara, my camel waterfall coat from Oasis, Alexander McQueen scarf and a pair of converse. I completely forgot to take some photos, so will ensure I take some photos of my outfit for my style diary over the course of five months. 

Hope exams are or have gone well if you have any. 

Take care,

B x

An Evening with Van Gogh

I am lucky enough to have a group of close friends, which have, or are going into, an array of exciting and unconventional careers. Monday evening was a prime example of their crazy lives. I was invited to an exhibition at Gallery 8, on Duke Street in Saint James, London. Now, for those of you that have never ventured down Duke Street, it is an art connoisseur’s dream! Stacks of galleries, art history book stores, sculptures, exhibitions etc. all in one dreamy place.

I met my friends first of all at Aprés bar opposite Selfridges, we probably sounded like a group of hens to everyone else around us, as we hadn’t seen each other for a few months. Therefore, had A LOT of catching up to do. After all the excitement we then jumped into a taxi and were on our way. After one last spurt of perfume, we made our way inside to view the stunning, abstract artwork. It was a lovely evening, bumping into people I hadn’t seen for years. The exhibition was one I really recommend going to see, even just to experience some unusual, creativity, which is influenced by Van Gogh.

After the display, 30 of us went to Matsuri in Saint James for dinner, which was to die for. If you love Japanese food, you cannot beat it. However, the bill was not a pretty sight, one I shall be paying for, for the rest of the month. But it was so worth it, the sushi platter is delicious and you get to watch the Michelin star chefs cook on the hotplate in front of you. Remember to take your camera as you’ll definitely be in awe of some of their tricks or even be able to help them cook.

The main reason for my post was my outfit for the evening, which I want to share with you guys. The dress-code was smart/casual – which is one of the most difficult dress-codes to dress for. So, I opted for…

My new black, jumpsuit from Whistles. It is one of the comfiest outfits, it’s smart, but something you can dress up and down. Another reason why I love it is because I have quite a large bust, so I’m always weary of strapless clothing. But it is made of high quality fabric so, is very secure and shows off an hourglass figure perfectly. I dressed it down with my leather jacket, also from Whistles, as I didn’t want to be too dressy. I recently bought some white, block heel sandals from Zara, which really rubbed my toes but they looked cute. No pain, no gain and all. To tie it all together I used my white-croc-clutch bag again, from Whistles to match in with my white shoes. Then to finish off the outfit I wore minimal jewellery, my B necklace, watch from Georg Jenson and McQueen cuff. Here are some of my photos of what it all looked like. (Sorry, I didn’t take a photograph of the outfit together, I was in such a rush and almost missed my train!)

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This weather is gorgeous at the moment, but is distracting me so much from university assignments and revision. It seems my mind has gone into summer mode when I’m not quite there yet. Only five weeks left of second year, then I’m free until September, how time flies!! Are you all enjoying the sun?

Hope you had a great week and are enjoying a relaxing Easter weekend eating an absurd amount of chocolate eggs.

B x

PS. excuse the messy room in the photograph!

Spring-Time Spurges!

Do you ever get transfixed on an item of clothing? You think, ah if only I had… It would go with this, this, this, oh and this. I am terrible for this kind of thing, every three months I seem to get a bee in my bonnet about a pair of shoes, coat, skirt etc. which I think will literally, change my life. 

So I ‘invested’ (I say invested to make myself feel better!) in two skirts, a white shirt, a pair of loafers and a YSL lipgloss. All of which, I am so excited to wear and use. 

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Bubblegum Pink Skirt – Zara, £29.99 – I’ve made a conscious decision to start wearing more skirts. I wear them all the time at work, so I don’t know why I was so nervous about wearing one as an everyday outfit. I like this skirt as it’s quite bold, especially for me, I’m rarely seen in any other colour bar black. It’s so diverse, you could team it up with a white shirt, plain cotton tee and sandals, a big coat, wooly tights and boots or little turtle neck. It’s great for any season, adding colour in the winter or keeping bright in the summer, I’m very excited to wear it out! Eeeek.

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White V-neck Shirt – Zara, £29.99 – You can’t really go wrong with a white shirt, it goes with everything. From jeans and trainers to a leather pencil skirt and heels. It does exactly what it says on the tin, and I’m quite surprised I didn’t have one. It’s a statement piece, which is so wearable, every season and every year. 

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Purple and Red Lace Skirt – Zara, £39.99 – Again, as I said I’m trying to get into more skirts. So took the plunge and bought two in one day. I love the colours and I really like the length, just on your knee. I think I’ll be able to team it with a lot of things I already own in my wardrobe and it is also so comfy, which is a massive bonus. Would look really sweet with black heeled sandals and a little tee with a statement necklace. 

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Black Patent Loafers – Boutique, £16.99 – I had a pair of loafers, which I wore to absolute death, to the point where they were falling apart. So, I decided I needed a replacement as I’ve felt quite lost without my old ones, and boy, have I missed wearing loafers. They’re unbelievably comfy as have a spongy innersole. I got them from a little boutique just off of Camden high street, for that price such a steal! 

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YSL Lipgloss, Rouge Velours – Boots, £21 – I’ve always wanted to get into red lipstick. I think it looks amazing on some people, sophisticated, elegant, sexy and very 1950s! Therefore, I thought why not try and incorporate it into your makeup box, it’s a gloss as I thought I’d try this first before jumping in the deep in with a lipstick. I’ll let you know how I get on. 

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I am now broke, as you can image! I’ll let you guys know how I get on with all of my new purchases, I haven’t even tried any of them on. Knowing my luck they won’t suit me, haha. Have you guys splurged over anything this month? Or are you being more sensible than me? 

I hope you had a great weekend. 

Take care,

B x

A Silent World

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After watching This Morning, this morning, I felt compelled to write a blog post about Joanne Milne. Joanne was born profoundly deaf, it wasn’t until she was two-years-old when her mother was clapping in the garden, and Joanne didn’t react that they knew something was wrong. She was later diagnosed with having Usher Syndrome, and went on to attend a specialised deaf school until the age of seven, she then attended a mainstream school where there was a deaf unit attached to it. Joanne underwent speech therapy lessons, she learnt to lip-read to an extremely high standard and various lip patterns to try to speak in a similar way to those who are able to hear.

As I’ve mentioned before, my twin brother, Frazer has a high-pitch hearing loss, so this interview, of course hit home. My brother underwent the same operation for a cochlear implant, when he was just five-years old. This operation has enabled him to hear like you or I. Although his preferred way of communication is Sign Language, as hearing for him is something that takes a great deal of concentration. Watching the video of Joanne hearing for the first time, made my family and I feel so emotional, as we could relate to it. After my brother was implanted, the doctor was tapping a toy car on the table. For the first time, Frazer turned around to the doctor, put his finger to his mouth and went, ‘shhhh!’ as you can imagine my mother was in tears. As Milne said in her interview with Holly and Phil, ‘words cannot describe how overwhelming it was to hear for the first time.’ 

Joanne came across as such a lovely and bubbly lady. She tries not to see her disabilities as negative. It was interesting to get an insight from someone who hasn’t been able to hear for nearly 40-years, highlighting just how much we take for granted; sounds such as – your own breathing, a ticking clock, the birds and radio playing. Unfortunately, with her Usher Syndrome means she is also going blind, which is devastating. This is why she decided to take the big step to have an implant, so that she will no longer live in a silent world.

Here’s the link so you can watch her hearing for the first time, http://www.theguardian.com/world/video/2014/mar/28/deaf-40-year-old-women-hears-sound-first-time-video 

I need to be more appreciative of what I have, we take these things such as – hearing, sight, smell etc. all for granted. I have been amazed and inspired by her and my brother! I hope you are too.

I’m off to start writing my university, manifesto on pornography. Yes, I did just write pornography, I love my degree. Haha.

Hope you’re having a good week.

Take care,

B x